I believe in wishing & wishing BIG...but...I am always quoted as saying, "careful what you wish for" as I feel this is VERY much the truth. We often wander around carelessly throwing out wishes to the wind & never paying enough attention to what we are truly sending out into the world. Back in 2011, I was wishing things almost hourly. I was in a great job that completely took me for granted, I was constantly overworked & undermined...so I was wishing for a break from it all. I hardly got to spend much time with my boyfriend or family...so I wished that I could just relax & be with them as much as I wanted. These are only a few of the many wishes I was so carelessly throwing to the universe. Well...careful what you wish for...
It's now been 1 year, 9 months & 21 days or you might break it down further like 94 weeks or 660 days or 15,840 hours or 950,400 minutes or 57,024,000 seconds from this moment to when I last worked. On the night of May 15, many of my wishes were granted but in some of the weirdest of ways. That night I was granted a break...a complete & total break. Not only literally (my left ankle & left wrist) but a break from almost all responsibilities. I had to take time to heal therefore I had to stay still & relax....just as I wished. My partner & I were thrust into living with each every moment & we were under the watchful care of family...wish granted. I no longer had to worry about work or deal with all the issues that we driving me insane...another wish answered. But as I said...careful what you wish for...
I had so carelessly wished to be away from it all that I had forgotten that an open-ended wish comes with an open-ended answer. Due to the extensive injuries I sustained in the accident, I now can no longer do the job that I was able to do before. The time spent relaxing was also due to extreme pain. Time completely passed me by & I have spent 2 full summers stuck inside with no beach time, which I LOVE! I missed the seasons changing & all the events that come with them. My boyfriend lost any alone time as he became my care giver in many more ways then even he bargained for. During this whole rest/break time don't think it wasn't spent without stress as that came by the buckets full! Wishing I now knew what to...wish for next...
Now, not all is lost in this open-ended wishing & not all is as miserable as one might think. For starters, my boyfriend & I are closer then we could be! We have a much better understanding of each others individualism & our love is stronger then ever. The family has truly come to my aid & stayed at my side through it all. If I hadn't gone through this ordeal I would not have slowed down enough to find & take care issues before they became full on wars. Opportunities are now knocking heavily on my door. Exciting new adventures that I may not have explored if I were still working under the demands of my job at the time. I now find myself on a few huge new journeys with bright new futures! All of which I may not have been ready for if I weren't all rested & fully eager for this newness. So like I said...WISH BIG...just...careful what you wish for.
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